may 12th just passed by like there was nothing to remember it by. i wanted to drop some flowers off but i thought twice. it would cause alot of confusion everywhere. so i didnt.

lifes been really taking over me. i couldnt even sleep last night. it was terrible. i didnt stop thinking ever since i laid down on the bed. thinking really breaks me down sometimes. i just fall deeper and deeper into this hole that i cant come out from. it is really frustrating. i would always have to try to make myself as tired as possible so that i can finally fall asleep. it sucks. yes it does.

ive lost all senses. i dont know whats wrong and whats right. i just tumble. i just fall.

rick.